5 months!

Today the girls turned 5 months. I cannot believe how quickly time is flying by.

These girls never fail to delight me and make me feel rushes of love and joy. They are giggling and playing peek a boo and stomping their legs when they are sitting in their bouncers, watching us stomp our legs. They are cooing and babbling and Ruby in particular has this way of gasping as if in shock, and then letting out a loud "ooooeeeeerrrr". Ava is still more quiet, but likes to coo softly when held and sung to. But oh boy, can she yell when she's in the car and wanting her dummy!  Ava rolled 3 times in a row a couple of days ago and we managed to get it on film.

So much to capture and so much to remember!

They also exhaust me and challenge me and make me question simple decisions like should I try and put them to bed now or wait another half hour? Should I rock her to sleep or is that just taking the easy way out and i should try and teach her to self settle....And then Josh will have another baby in his arms and will ask me what the next step is and I just want to put my hands in the air and go "I have no bloody idea". Well, sometimes I do say that, but sometimes I give a suggestion and sometimes it works and then wow, what a sense of achievement.

I've learnt that there is no such thing as a good day or a bad day. Instead, there are good periods in a day and bad periods.

Sleep times are becoming a bit of a battle. I don't know why. We used to be able to put them to bed after 1 1/2 hours of wake time and it would be relatively easy. But not anymore. I've tried pushing it out to 2 hours, but not sure if that is working. Sometimes we can pop Ruby in her bassinette and she will put herself to sleep. Haven't managed to do that with Ava in aaaages. Other times I have to rock them to sleep or feed them to sleep. And then I beat myself up cos these are bad habits. But Josh says we need to cut ourselves some slack and sometimes you just have to do whatever works.

So yeah, motherhood seems to be full of highs and lows, all within a day.

Today they got immunised and thankfully it went really well. Little bit of crying but nothing too bad. And a bit of grouchiness for the rest of the day but that was too be expected. Now they don't have to get any more injections for another 10 months. Thank goodness for that!