Eviction notice

We got a call yesterday saying that the dr's all think it's time for the twins to come out as their growth has slowed right down. So had another steroid shot today, got some blood taken and have been told to show up on Monday for a c-section. Unfortunately, they are booked out all week, so it's just a matter of waiting around all day and hoping they don't have too many emergency surgeries so they can fit us in. Will be 34 weeks and 3 days by then, but they are still oh so tiny... We are very excited to meet the twins, but feeling a bit overwhelmed! And personally, I'm pretty nervous about the NICU experience, but starting to get my head around it. Just trying to decide how to spend our last day together as a childless couple. Clean the house or go out for the day and have a nice lunch/dinner??? :)

Seriously though, it's been an emotional couple of days. Swinging from being excited, to feeling totally unprepared, and then feeling sad that I'm not going to get the traditional/hollywood version of giving birth, with the big cuddle at the end.  And I can't help but feel like we are kicking these babies out.  To be honest, I always thought that they'd come out around the 34 week mark, and seems I'm right. But I just thought they'd decide when to come out and would let us know. So seeing as I still feel fine (albeit very pregnant, a bit achey, slow, etc), and the babies seem happy (lots of movement), I wonder if I should insist the doctors wait.  Their fluid levels are back to normal and the doppler readings, whilst higher than normal, is still not at freak out levels.  It's just that they both didn't put on much weight in the last two weeks (only around 100grams in two weeks).  But maybe it was just a bad two weeks? Argh, I wish I could just accept this decision.

 We wandered down to NICU today to see what we are in for, and the receptionist told me that they don't do tours anymore, I will just have to view the NICU info video online. Which I've already seen. I promptly burst into tears, so she rushed off to find out if a NICU nurse could at least talk to me. And a lady called Angela came in and told us that we'll get to see the babies after the c-section, and they'll wheel me into NICU after I'm stitched up so I can wave to them in the incubator. And they'll wheel me down the next day, if I'm not up and walking yet.  Still not ideal, but at least they don't just get whisked away. 

 She still refused to show us around for privacy reasons, but wouldn't you know it, our friends from the antenatal group walked by . There babies were born at 31 weeks due to pre-eclempsia, which was 2 weeks ago. So he said we should come with him and meet his babies (Carl and Anna) and also see his wife.  It was wonderful to talk to her about her experience and see the babies. They are so tiny! But bigger than what our babies are now, as theirs were 1.5kg when born at 31 weeks (which makes me realise we need to get my babies out and growing). He had a cpap tube and a feeding tube, and his little preemie nappy was swimming on him. But they said it has been a good introduction to parenthood, as you learn things in small doses and get lots of help.  Broke my heart though when they excitedly told us they get one cuddle a day now!  Just not what I pictured birth/motherhood to be like.  But I've told my babies that this is their journey and their birth story, and hopefully Monday and the real world wont be too much of a shock for them.

 I'm going to be a mama within days!!!!!!!!!!!